Ice Man

I used to think that love was just an illusion… I fell, I dipped, I dived into it. Yet… There was ice surrounding my heart, all the time, nevermind the fact that every single time it all looked very different, unique, full of passion, heartwarming, elegant and nice… Alas! Everything that is hot becomes luke warm when it touches my heart, everything that is cold becomes a stone that I throw out… It always fades away. Too soon, I reckon… For no reason whatsoever… By “it” I mean - love? Although sentiment is neither an enemy nor a friend of mine, love is something that I never knew… It has always been a mystery to me. Like it’s a chemical defect and that little machine that pumps blood through my body works way too “perfectly”… I feel like an eternal ice man. Trapped inside his own unfortunate circle of successful chemical reactions, going through life without feeling the most desired state of mind… But… I began this text with a past tense because today I can say that I believe in love, although some time ago I strongly denied loves existence. I was sure that so called "Love" is nothing but an ephemeral desire. I was very wrong... Someone special to me showed me what love really is. I realized that love is when you crave the best things in the world for another, you want to make that other person feel content, to smile, you want to make him or her feel desired, enough... And finally, that special person proved me that IT never fades away if, of course, it was A TRUE LOVE. Although I have never felt it before, I have seen it. So I have hope that the future will gift me with someone I could finally fall in love with deeply.

May You love and be loved,

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